My wife was reading
A Million Little Pieces. She would read snippets from the book to me and I was not impressed. It seemed to me that every sentence began with the word "I". As in:
Feeling better?
No.
You should get some sleep.
I'm gonna.
I look at my Mom. She can't look back. I breathe.
I just.
I look away.
I just, you know.
I look away. I can't look at them.
I just wanted to say thanks. For picking me up.
Bev said to me, "Please read it. You will really like it." I said, "I have heard all those stories before. I really don't need to hear them again." But, when she finished the book, I picked it up and began to read and before I knew it, I was on page 174 and was crying.
It's a story about a young man of twenty three who drank for 10 years and took drugs of all kinds for three years. When he was put on the plane for his home town, to be picked up by his parents, he had fallen off a fire escape, broke out four front teeth and put a large hole through his cheek. He was covered in blood and vomit and hadn't had a bath in days.
It's the story of a young man and the horror he went through before arriving at an alcohol and drug treatment center. It's the story of getting sober. It's the story of his parents facing the truth about their son and the son taking responsibility for his actions. The writing is honest and comes from the heart. The story may make you scream at a society that loses so many to drugs and alcohol.
My major concern about James Frey's method of recovery is that he disregards the advice and suggestions of his counselors. His counselors tell him that even using the 12 Steps of AA, only about 15% actually get and stay sober. He is able to accept Step 1 easily, but many of the steps are rejected. I have seen people come in to AA that are know-it-alls. They don't usually last long. My advice, if you read this book and think he's telling your story or you can seeing where your "running and gunning" might be leading you, take the advice of those who have been where you are now and have stayed sober. And sobriety is not just holding on by your finger nails, but a way to live. A way to live where you never wonder what I did last night, or where did I park the car. The only person who tells you to keep coming back is the bartender.
The 12 Suggested Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous
1 We admitted we were powerless over alcohol--that our lives had become unmanageable.
2 Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3 Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4 Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5 Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6 Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7 Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8 Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9 Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10 Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11 Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12 Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.